Just Maggie

Male vs Female

     Ladies, have you ever felt like you are stronger than the world? there is a friend of mine that is skilled in karate and is always messing around with me pretending to kick my butt. However, I will try to fight him with all that I have and it doesn't even faze him. To know that when you put all of your might into something and it means nothing really makes you feel weak.
     Last week I woke up in such a great mood. I was driving to work and I felt like kicking someones ass. I wanted to learn how to shoot a gun and I wanted to karate kick this friend...lets call him Al. So I'm sitting in my car imagining myself flipping Al over and him looking up from the ground in amazement. Just in shock that I was able to flip him so easily. As he looked up at me I could see him trying to say "someone has trained you". But I told him to keep quiet and not let anyone else know. Yes, I know, its insane. But for just a moment I felt like I was a powerful being that nobody could mess with. Until today, when Al and I were once again horsing around and he says to me...there is no way you can ever beat me. You are a female and females can not beat males. Hmmm, that really took me for a second. Is it true? Is it impossible for a female to kick a males ass in a fight? He claims that females are not fast enough or strong enough. I beg to differ.
I would really like to think that if I trained hard and was in as good of physical shape as Al, I would be able to take him down....is it possible? Or is he right and are women always going to be the weaker of the sexes?

Divorce is NOT a bitch!

I finally did it. If you notice, I havent been writing much over the past few months. Why is that you may ask? Well, I decided after 18 years of marriage that it was time to leave. I was torn for years about leaving because of my son. Now that he is 18 I really just wanted to make myself happy.
Im not bashing his dad, well, I will try not to...but I am really doing great now! I quit smoking and living in a new place that I love and life is great...and my son is happy for me! Go figure, all of this time I was not doing it because he told me he couldnt handle it if we split up. Now that I did it, he is really doing fine with it.
I think its amazing how reziliant kids can be and how much we as parents will stay in a marriage so they are happy. The thing is, they really arent happy. Its when you leave and they see how happy you are and they dont see or hear any arguing that make them happy as well.

When parents get sick

You know, when we are little we look to our folks for guidance and protection. You assume that they will always be there and that they are stronger than anyone else and will not have anything bad happen to them.

Then, as you get older, and they get older, you start to see that they will get sick and eventually leave us. But when it happens, it is so hard to comprehend. At least for me it is.

My dad got sick after a biopsy two weeks ago and ended up with 106 degree temp and almost died. He was in the hospital for five days and when he was released he was told that he had cancer. I try to think positive and hope that only the best will come out of it. I went to see him and mom last weekend and while there I was told that mom may have the nasty cancer as well.....talk about a shocker! I just don't know how to deal with it at the moment and I am starting to have a very negative outlook on life. At first, when dad was sick, I thought, why argue with people, why worry about the little things...so I stopped. I truly did not want to waste the time I have here worrying about little things I have no control over and that will mean absolutely nothing to me two weeks down the road. But now, since hearing about mom, I have started to look at life differently once again. Now, I feel like...whats it all for? None of it really matters, when you die it is over....so what are we doing it all for? I have really lost any drive I use to have and I don't know how to get it back.

No, I'm not suicidal, I guess I'm just lost right now and need to find my way before I lose everything I have been working so hard for. Any suggestions???

sleep disorders

Good morning all! It has been quite some time since I have written and I think this will do me some good to start back for awhile. Boy, these past few months have been crazy and I feel like Im at my witts end.

About a month ago I had a friend tell me I should talk to my doctor about my sleep. See, I tend to get real tired and fall asleep at the worst times. You know, like while watching movies/tv, while talking on the phone and oh, riding in a car,.. driving. But for years when I get real tired I just pull over and sleep for 20 minutes and finish the drive. Yes, there have been a couple of close calls where I have almost hit someone, but luckily it never happened. Ok, so anyway, I go to do a sleep study and for the most part things are normal.

Not the best experience of my life but I did go and do it and the pulmonary specialist told me I should go see a neurologist because he thinks something is going on but cant figure out what.....dont you just love it when you spend money to go see a doctor and the final result is them telling you they dont know whats wrong....just makes you really want to go to another one that will probably say the same thing. And this isnt my normal doc that tells me he doesnt know, this is the specialist that my normal doc sent me to....so of all people he should know what the heck is going on  right? Oh well, Im done wasting time with this, I have dealt with it for years and I think I will just continue. 

Back from Vegas!

Wow! What a trip that was! I have returned and boy did I have fun. As soon as I walked into my hotel to check in I dropped $50.00 on the roulette table and won $1750.00! Over the five days I was there I won a total of 6 times on the same number playing roulette. It is now my favorite game. It certainly paid for my trip and made it nice to enjoy myself.

Then there was the partying....oh boy did we drink and I have no idea how I made it through those five days. We met some people that gave us the VIP treatment and were able to see a lot of things while there. Even though I have been there many times, this was by far the most fun Id had in a long time.

Vegas baby!

I just love to travel and finally I get to get away for a few days. In mid August Danielle and me will be heading to sin city. She just turned 21 in April so I think this will be a heck of an experience for her. Im sure she will get into some sort of mischief so I may have to steer clear of her some so I dont end up locked up...lol

Its amazing what wild things you will do when your young. You think your untouchable and will take almost any risk....then when you get older you look back and wonder...how the hell did I get away with THAT one!

Touching base

Well, it has been a couple of months since I have written. I have been extremely busy at work and I finally was able to get my company up and running. Boy, you do not realize how much has to go into opening a company until you are actually doing it. The marketing aspect alone is unreal. Anyway, I am official, I have my own property management company now. I still work for the guy I was with before, he wasn't crazy about me going into business for myself but he is an absentee owner so he is actually going to turn over his entire company to us to manage.....yeah!!!!

The past six days have been really busy...I had family here since last Wednesday (six) days that I only get to see a few times a year. It was really great to see them but it does take a lot out of you when you have 5 extra people running around and two big dogs.....but it was fun.

I am so wanting to go to a beach this year. I have not been able to get away to go and would really like to go lay out and enjoy the sun and water...and thats a first for me because I have always HATED the beach and the sun....for some reason I am changing my thoughts on things. I have this desire to go out and do dangerous things lately. I want to go para-sailing, white water rafting and oh...the kyle petty racetrack where I can drive a race car. I am really wanting to do that....not sure why but I'm pretty much up for anything at this point.

Well, I am off to get my day started, thanks for reading:)

Maggie

A new beginning

Well, I have been neglecting my writing lately and for good reason. I am starting my own property management company and it is taking all of my time these days. I have learned a lot trying to fix the company I am at currently and realized that I can definitely run my own company with a lot less stress.

I have also had a lot of things going on personally. I have a family member that is going to be moving up the street from me. Yikes! Thats why I moved here is to get away from family being so close and now they are coming here...whats up with that?? Don't get me wrong, I love my family, however, I find that I see them more frequently and get along better with them when there is some distance between us. Plus I can do what I want to do and do not have people questioning me. Oh well, I suppose I will survive it.

I went back home to Virginia last weekend to visit my mom and I took my neice from NY with me so she could see her mom (my sister). It was time for a visit, my sister is having an episode with her MS and I felt her daughter needed to go see her. It amazes me what kind of things a person with MS goes through. One day they can be fine and the next can't walk or have no feeling on one side of the body. I just think its an awful thing to go through and I wish my sister didn't have to.

MS attack

I found out today that my sister is having another MS attack. I do not understand exactly how it works...but I feel awful when someone has to go through the episodes that come on. She is now having issues with her right side. Evidently, her whole right side is like its paralyzed. She can't eat, walk or do anything that requires the use of anything on her right side. I can only imagine what she is going through and I hope she gets over this soon.

The reason I am writing about it, is that I am hoping that someone may have more experience with how MS works and may comment and offer some suggestions on how to improve her condition or maybe give ideas on how to prevent another episode. She has been going in the past 4 days for IV drips to get the swelling around her spine to go down but they aren't helping...any ideas?

Going to the gym!

Yep, I did it! I went to the gym! I knew I needed to start going but I am so bad about committing to anything I just avoid it like the plague.

But this weekend I took a chance. A g/f of mine wanted to go so I went with her. I was there about 30 minutes, did a little bit of the treadmill, steps, weights and that big round ball for crunches...oh god I need that at home..what fun there is to be had on that thing! Whew!! LOL

Even though I felt good afterwards, I didn't bother returning the next day. So, I have decided since it is spring, I am going to try walking at least 3 times a week for 30 minutes...thats what the doc says I should be doing. Then once I start to feel a difference with doing that, maybe it will get me motivated to work out.

Until that point, is there any pointers any of you fitness buffs can give that will help you get the drive to get to the gym on a regular basis? What is it that makes a person love going to work out? If there is such a thing, what is it???? I need a sampling of it now!:)